I love you, you moan against my neck before turning over. I face the window and pretend that the rain is my tears. It used to be so simple before I needed you to be complete.
(before i needed anything)
Last night the razor sliped and made the tiniest cut on my wrist. Crimson blood made a river down my vanilla skin. Pain pulsed in my veins and I relized then that I too was human.
(all too human)
Something left me that night you drove away. My mind chose to deny it but deep inside my rotting core I knew that my heart went with you. Maybe it would have been better if you never gave me wings
(even if they were tissue paper)
Be
Not everything in life
is black and white
you were the shade of grey, in mine
You left a mark
upon my heart
and you placed a thread of memories, in my mind
But no matter what was left
and no matter what you said
What we had, it wasn't real
it wasn't real
and no matter how I tried
to justify your lies
I knew deep inside
you didn't care how I feel
Now I'd like to speak the truth
your words were what I held on to
They were what made me so "confused"
Now that they have lost their grasp
and I've listened to the truth
I'd like to take this moment to thank you
For wasting my time
for making me cry
for all the times you left me
Do you remember that night we lossed our innocence? On your step moms couch with the cosby show blaring in the background. And the very next night at church we were preached to about sex at a young age. Your hand softly slid up my skirt.
(my childhood flew away)
Every Saturday wed spend the night at each others house. Once the parents went out to play cards at the neighbors wed be up against the bathroom mirror. Friction between to writhing bodies only to finish in a blaze of white.
(white like snow but hot like fire)
Sometimes wed skip school on Fridays just to drive away for the weekend to destinations unknown. I
I love you, he said
He was a prep and she was a scene
But they were a romance meant to be
I think youre beautiful, he told her one night
I think Im ugly, she replied
His touches were made of sunshine,
That burnt through her vampire skin
You amaze me, he murmured against pale flesh
You lie to me, she whispered against his neck
He seduced her with words that were of all truth
Not one lie left his lips and still she refused
I love the rain, she confessed one night on the phone
Will you dance with me in the rain? he asked in response
And s
You cannot have me
I have worked too hard
I have tamed the fire within
You cannot have me
I have come too far
I will not be dragged down
You cannot have me
I am stronger than that